| I feel more puzzled than before
My mind goes mad and complicated
I just analysed the problem like a kid
without having a deep insight on any side
I have never dealt with such a situation
Which one is more important
Which one should I give up or strive for
I don't get a clear mind
Actually it is far too simple than I thought
How much do you need to give up for it
at the cost of what
That's the opportunity cost
I even find myself complicated
as I am confident to some extent
like dealing with people with weaker ability
I am willing to talk more
try to be an active one but not to make others uncomfortable
have an open mind to listen for opinion
I am really hungry to learn
but when strong opponents come
I just suck
everything goes wrong
I don't know why I have to be afraid
I still try my best to pretend
though at the bottom of my heart I am hopeless to win the game |
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| These days my life are full of frustrations.
I started to wonder if I am brilliant enough to study finance
or you may say it need not a brilliant mind to finish it
I have to spend quite a lot of hours on some most basic topics such as derivatives
and I can't believe midterm result
Sometimes my effort doesn't payoff
I know
but when you tried your best but you didn't succeed
or the failure came upon something that you had most faith
you may just question yourself again and again
I did try my best without any regrets
I am willing to struggle till the end
though at the end I maybe a loser
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| I felt my soul.
This was the moment when I tried to carry on.
And the voice of giving up came out from the bottom of my heart.
I leashed my mind.
It wasn't me.
Pushed myself over the limit,
far over what I could bear.
My body could not support me anymore
and this is the moment when my mental spirit beats physical limits.
Though this is not optimal point,
but still feel great,
for sure. |
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| November
I promised that I will push my endurance and skill to a new level in November.
I long to beat you down
Everyone sees your ugly face
and the only way that can make u desperate is to train myself
and be stronger than u
U are just too arrogant to die |
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| 辛苦了6個星期
尢其係上個星期
辛苦既程度=前5個星期既總和
每日訓3,4個鐘
hockey practice又無停過
仲會間唔中有circuit train有早波
空餘時間用黎溫習多
最多會係樓到搵人吹下水玩一陣
但係其他既娛樂真係一d都無
依家到左reading week
星期日先完左個midterm
今日星期一溫左少少書
打左陣機
但係完全搵唔到辛苦完有得放縱下的感覺
捱左咁耐
都係想依家可以透一透姐
陣係想連打winning打幾個鐘姐
都無!!!
想搵個人陪我顛下都無
聽日又要溫書啦 |
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